My Journey to Joy

December 15, 2011

What Stays the Same

Filed under: Contemplations — aunthoddy @ 5:00 AM
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Going through infertility and adoption has brought a lot of ups and downs.

“Maybe we’re pregnant!  Oh, we’re not pregnant.”

“Ooooh, we’re being shown!  We weren’t chosen.”

And just this week: “She’s decided to parent.”

So much change and uncertainty.  So much that we don’t understand.  So much that we don’t know.  What?  When?  How?

When we found out that we were being shown to this particular birthmother, we were optimistic.  The situation seemed to be falling into place, and we were hopeful.  I’ve been checking out baby clothes, running through scenarios in my mind:  “We could tell the grandparents this way…  How am I going to juggle my work schedule?  I’ll shop for clothes here…”  Those are put on hold, again.

Last week, Daniel & I talked about what stays the same.  We talked about what we have, and cannot lose.  Christmas.  Jesus.  Salvation.  Heaven.  No one can change that!  God loves me, Jesus died for me, and the Holy Spirit comforts me.  Whether we ever become parents or not.

The idea of a baby for Christmas was exciting and wonderful.  I have an ornament that says “Proud New Parents.”  I’ll leave it in its wrapping for at least another year…and that’s okay.  I still have my God to believe in, my husband to hold onto, my wonderful family and friends to celebrate with, and countless other blessings.  Rejoicing through tears…

For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given:

and the government shall be upon his shoulder:

and his name shall be called

Wonderful, Counseller,

The mighty God,

The everlasting Father,

The Prince of Peace. 

Isaiah 9:6



  1. Hugs to you and Daniel! I know from our experiences with Stacie and Steve, this is not an easy ride by any means.
    Love you both!

    Comment by Sarah — December 15, 2011 @ 9:42 AM | Reply

  2. PTL for those precious things that remain the same no matter what!! Yes, Holly, because of Him and our great salvation, God is GOOD-all the time. Thanks for the reminder. Love ya so much. ~Mom

    Comment by Sue Fleming — December 15, 2011 @ 4:24 PM | Reply

  3. Still praying and believing! God continues to do BIG things and I’m so thankful for the HOPE we have in Him. Read something today about His Name-Immanuel which means “God With Us”-think on that Holly, no matter what-He hasn’t left you!! His very name means He is right there with you and Daniel (and me too!! PTL!)-all the time! Love you both!.

    Comment by Lisa — December 16, 2011 @ 2:36 PM | Reply

  4. That has to be so incredibly hard. We too were “supposed to” have a new little one this Christmas, but God had other plans… Your attitude is a great one. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    Comment by crisgoode — December 23, 2011 @ 10:01 PM | Reply

    • I’ve thought of you many times as I’ve written different things. I can’t imagine how hard it must have been for you to lose your precious baby. Praying that you have a very special Christmas with Miss Add & your family…

      Comment by aunthoddy — December 23, 2011 @ 11:50 PM | Reply

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